Dear Cay,
I know a stream of perplexity in your brain is meandering its way into troubling you a bit too much! Well, subject and career choices will bother you that way and I am writing this letter to tell you that it is completely normal to think, overthink and brainstorm. And even if you didn’t do all of that, that also is pretty normal!
Cay, I have crossed fifty years of age but I still remember the time when I used to be in your shoes. I was exactly like you! What people told me then, was that this overlapping puddle of fear was completely ‘NORMAL’, what they didn’t tell me was that ‘NORMAL’ was not always ‘OKAY’. One gets to feel the difference between the two when the struggling brain cells don’t reach a conclusion. They get exhausted and that they have no strength left to support the raging storm.
It all narrows down to how long will you keep letting it torment you! Collect, decisiveness comes from calm. Till you get rid of your anger, you are not going to reach any solution but keep cribbing and worrying about the problem. So the difference between ‘Normal’ and ‘Okay’ is MENTAL HEALTH. More than anything else, have sincere respect for it because it is something that will keep you sane through several conundrums. For the sake of you, for the sake of mental health you will have to draw the line between what is okay for you and what is not! Let the society bark what they consider normal but you do what you consider okay for you💖
Look, I am not sure whether the cramped up rooms in your mind space are troubling you or is it their emptiness that’s making you go all stressful. Believe me, after all of this, you’ll solve the equation between you and your problem. Trust me your equation will exist. It might not be perfectly balanced but it will exist and most importantly you can always improve on it.
Thank God, the day you finally decide what you aim to become! Remember, that’s not going to be the end. There will be times when the path to your destination will seem invisible, not even a dotted line shall you see, forget joining the dots. But have your pillar of faith high, very high. Don’t let it go ramshackle for once and if it does, pile it up again! It’s about failures and not giving up and even if you do for some time, strike again.
Cay, it’s not easy and not very tough in all honesty, everyone goes through it. Over time what we learn is called the skill of tackling. Even if you know your goal and path, there will be times you won’t understand things, you won’t be able to comprehend them. It could be not understanding certain formulas in physics and mathematics, not being able to mug up history or geography chapters or messing up your entire accounts table the fifth time!
The truth that other people are doing better might irritate you! You will start feeling the pressures of rat race but you have to know yourself in and out and even if you are confused about something, make sure you know you are confused about it. Don’t choose to stay oblivious! And the same line I will repeat, it’s okay to be oblivious for some time but remember to strike, remember to pile it up again!
Yes, I know it’s easy for me to preach and you might think that’s all people do but I got to do what I got to do! I will do what’s possible from my side. Sometimes, you will find people not doing this little because they are envious of you but you can’t loathe them or judge them. They have their own reasons and their own insecurities. In the long run you might end up being one of them. TRY not to:) If you become successful at not becoming one of the green eyed monsters, you will leave behind a legacy, you will leave an impact.
XOXO ( learning new things these days),
Grandma.
